Life In A Brief Glance

Ah well. Here I am, posting from my phone, cause the com is currently not available. I guess this is what it's like when you have a sibling who has just completed their 'O' or 'A' levels. I wonder how it'd be like for my siblings once I finish the inevitable 'A' levels..

So I heard, this blog's template is screwed. Ahh but with phone, searching for a new blogskin and changing this would be torture. Hope you understand! Well if I get hold of the busy com tonight I might fix the skin.

I went to a guitar shop in Bukit Timah Plaza today with some people from the level and some juniors to get our guitars! My Mum came along to pay. Obviously, I bought the cheapest one. Apparently it works the same as a $500 Yamaha brand one. Mine cost $175. It looks ordinary, but it's my first guitar. :) Haha I'm gonna practice after this post.

I've been sleeping at 1am or 2am at night (or morning), and waking up at 10plus or 11am. That partly explains my recent frequency of sore eye. Another factor is that the bathing soap or shampoo keeps getting into my eyes whenever I shower. Perhaps I need to gear up with goggles when I bathe.

Homework has been terrifying. I hate the dumb graph questions for Math. I had to flip through half of this year's notes to do half the physics paper. So far, I only finished all the Chinese work. And guess what? I haven't bought A Man For All Seasons. I haven't started Chemistry. Isn't this just great? Anyone willing to lend me the book for LA? I'm not going to school until 16th or 17th to buy the uniform. Or I might even buy the uniform from Shaw Centre. Darn. I wish I was really free.. Then when I'm doing all the stuff called 'Distractions', I would feel better too.

And my phone inbox is now overflowing with 2080 messages. I can't send 1 sms out without a complain from my phone.

I JUST WANNA SLEEP AND SHUT OUT THE WORLD!

Blogskins Are Driving Me Nuts

What the crap. I keep having problems with blogskins. I can't find suitable ones, the ones I want have problems, etc.

Now is looks screwed, and I don't have all the time in the world with the computer. So once again, I apologize all this. I needa go now! Who knows when I'll be back to save this blog.

AHHHHHHH.

2010

Though the year haven't officially end, something has ended... School. This is a rare year that we are upset that school has ended, because it was our finally year together. And there's lots of homework. :/

So now I'm waiting for a reply that tells me I'm officially in guitar. Alright I'm so sorry I gotta keep this post short. Check my other blog soon! XP

'Interesting' Day?

The haze is terrible. Why must they burn down forests?! Anyway, I'm in Malaysia with my dad. Since both of us don't know how to cook, we went out for lunch. We went to a mall that was not very well maintained (in terms of cleanliness). But many Malaysian malls are like that... Anyway, after eating, we needed to buy soap refill packs cause my mum informed me to. When we looked out into the open, it was pouring mad. The carpark was outdoors and we didn't bring the umbrella cause it was sunny. Well, not anymore. And so, we were stuck in the mall. We walked around on the first floor. My dad was not very much of a shopper, unless the kind of shopping you talked about is electrical appliances. So I was munching on some awesome waffle with chocolate while briefly scanning through the shops with him. We stopped by a Celcom (Malaysia phone/internet network) booth and the sales person started to chatter off. My dad didn't seem to be too keen on listening, though he was interested in the plans they offered. I stood there and stared and waited... It was still pouring mad the same. I couldn't finish the other waffle, I was too full. Finally, we walked off from the booth with my dad saying his usual "I'll think about it". We sat by the small entrance/exit of the mall, waiting for the rain to reduce to drizzle, but it was the kind of rain that lasts long. Then, a Malay lady came and sat beside me. She, too, was stuck because of the pouring rain. Then, she gave me a revision for my upcoming Malay oral test. I tried my best to understand, which I mostly could (after piecing the words together), it wasn't as easy replying. She was quite entertaining, in a good way. She complained of the rain and we were in the same situation. Haha, being stingy, our cars were parked at the nearby mini furniture mall instead of the indoor parking lots provided, cause we needed to pay RM1 to get in. The funniest part was when she complained about her husband, who went strolling in the mall cause it was raining and he couldn't get to the car anyway. When the rain lessned a bit, my dad went in the rain and got the car and umbrella. I said goodbye to the lady. Then, my dad brought me with the umbrella to the car, warning me before I encountered the puddles of water.

So, after being stuck in the mall for about 3 hours today, I learnt that umbrellas are highly essential in life.

Stuffs

Oh my... There's so many tests coming up soon! I wonder what I'm still here doing... I can imagine all my other classmates mugging away. But I still need my relax-time! :D Some excuse huh? I finished reading the Chinese short stories and Math Homework Set 2 only... Sad. I still have so much to study, and a swimming test that I can't practice to worry about. And things that are supposed to relief stress just made things worse... What has become of this world.

Luckily I have friends by my side who understands me, and also some who understand how I feel. I would feel alone in the world sometimes... But I'm fine now. :)

Here's a brief line-up of what's gonna happen on my blogs:
-Super long post on what has been bugging me since I dunno when, super splash of my thoughts, opinions and feelings. :O

-Exclusive post: Introduction to my home in Malaysia.

Hahahaha I feel like I'm advertising my blogs. If you're interested check out this blog or the other sometime in November!

Till then ya. :)

That Choking Feeling

I feel like there's something stuck in my throat now. It's that kind of feeling when you're dreading something I guess. Or when you regret something you've done.

Now I wonder: What triggered this feeling?

At first, I thought it's the leader in boarding issue. 5 people from our class officially applied, but Ms Lee only interviewed 2 of us because the rest have attire issues or punctuality issues or disciplinary issues. Jie Min and I were interviewed, and it seems like only 1 of us will get through. Ms Lee seems to want us to communicate better... Which is scary. Nvm, at least I can camouflage among the juniors if I get through. And also, why do I get this feeling that I'll get through? I think Jie Min should be the person to pass. :D Cause her grades are much much better than mine and she answered the interview so much better. Haha nvm, cause what is done is done.

That brings something to think about... What is making me feel that lump in my throat and the strange discomfort in my stomach? I think... It's because there's training from 8am - 6pm on Monday Tuesday Wednesday. :/ And I can't deny that I'm dreading this. Cause I'll be kinda left out sometimes and the trainings are really HELL. And I really meant it. Oh man I wanna quit because of this but I don't wanna quit because I like basketball... But seriously does the training have to be like that? Sian. Even if I get this over and done with I still have December holiday to worry about. Omg. Sigh.

Woo! September holidays are here! Argh if it even is a holiday... The homework we have now is twice as much the homework we got for June holidays when the June holidays are longer. Man I wonder what's wrong with my tenses. Nvm. And sigh the weather these few days is freaking hot and I hate perspiring for no apparent reason. Argh I have a headache from all these shitty crap and homework.

Ah well till next time.

Dragonboating

We had 2 dragonboating lessons. It was AWESOME! I love dragonboating! Hahaha. It is definitely better than Spire... Spire is a (sadly) boring lesson teaching us the uses and how to research to prepare us for our research programme some time soon... Sad man. I rather dragonboat every week... But who doesn't? :)

Last week, our boat only had 1 guy - Jia Yi. There was another boat with only 1 guy too. But Jia Yi's a canoer. Haha he was my partner. There was this other boat with 13 guys. OMG. However during the race, we were 2nd! O.o The boat with 13 guys were obviously the first. Sadly, the 205 boat was last. But at least they completed the race and that was the most important thing. Jia Yi didn't come to school today... He was sick. So I paddled alone. So we became the boat with no guys. This week, we were 2nd again... Wow. But this time the boat with 13 guys were not first, it was the boat with 1 guy. Sadly, 205 was last again... But they tried and that's the main thing. The main thing is to try. Whether you win or not, it always starts with trying first. If you don't try, you won't even move.

We just finished 2 tests - IS and LA Journal Entry. Ahh 2 more to go! I can't wait for next Monday to be over, because the other 2 tests are on Monday. Math and Chinese compo. After all the tests are over, I can finally read my storybook! Hahahaha. Omg, haha this is random but I just realised I am appearing offline on MSN after more than 20 minutes...

Yesterday was my brother's birthday... My family and I went to Vivocity. On the MRT on our way to Queenstown MRT Station to wait for my dad, there were foreigners from Youth Olympic Games... I saw their shirt... Columbia. Those were teenagers, probably competitors. And there was 1 Cuba man. My mum sat beside him. He was much older and definitely could not be a participant, so I thought he was probably a coach. After a while, he stood up to give up his seat to me! O.o I wasn't handicapped or carrying heavy stuff or anything... I didn't know what to do so I refused profusely politely (I think) then he proceeded to ask my younger sis to sit. My younger sis refused too. Finally, he sat back down. My mum helped us thank him. Then, she talked to him. It appeared that he didn't really understand or speak English. He is a coach for triathletes. Wow. Oh and he said that in his country (Cuba), the men (points thumb up), and the women (points thumb down) in buses and trains. Lol he meant that the men in Cuba stood in public transports and the women get the seats. Wow Cuba has way better men than Singapore. XD

Haha we dined at Fig and Olive in Vivo. It was nice. :) But it was filling cause we ordered quite a lot. After walking and shopping in Vivo, we bought a whole mudpie from Island Cremery and went home. :) And we ate again. Hahaha I think I put on at least 2kg after all that. Ok I am going to eat dinner (eat again XD).

All Too Fast

Hmm... What's all too fast? Yeah other than time? Haha I dunno for you, but for me, third lang is GONE. Ya. W.O.W.

Ines and I completed the form. After getting the principal's signature and school's official stamp, we would go to the language centre to hand in the form. So after school, we made our way to the general office. We were holding the form and the lady at the desk said, "Giving up your third language?" with a SMILE. Weirdness. Then, another staff said we could leave. I was surprised, seriously, so I confirmed if we had to go to the language centre to hand in the form. And he said no. Wow. Ines and I were both... Stunned. We said before that if we quit French we would go out on a Thursday. And it was a Thursday. So we went to KAP.

Yup, by right I'm on my way to improvement. Hope that it really happens or my parents will be disappointed again, and I think they had had enough.

Haha how bout other stuffs... Swimming, for instance. Man, I should really relax or something? Haha I am not for swimming but still, I gotta be able to do some stuff.

I went for the heats for track meet this year. I ran 4x400m. My teammates were Jia Ling, Keith and Sherman. We were second last in our heat... I think it's my fault. :( I was the third runner, Keith was the first, Jia Ling was the second and Sherman, fourth. Keith WAS second last, but Jia Ling was really, really, fast and caught up to be THIRD. WOW. And I was overtaken by 2 people. Man. So we were second last. But we still qualified! I thought about my running, maybe I shouldn't try to challenge the opponent RIGHT IN FRONT of me. I was really tempted to overtake so I tried, but failed... I kept trailing behind her, and got more and more tired. And I got further, further, futher... So I should just run at my own pace on that day. Who knows, I might be able to catch up with her in the end. Rather than get tired and run with a bad cramp near the end. I don't wanna feel THAT anymore. The finals are on Wednesday... I hope Aqua can catch up with the rest and won't be last anymore. There's another team for 4x400m (C Division), Jimmy, Janice, Claire and Kenson. Kenson was really fast in their heat. They qualified too. Haha so we have 2 teams to get points for Aqua! So I am not gonna care about the other competitors around me!

I Don't Want School To Reopen

I wanna protest. I don't wanna go back to school. Homework, stupid test, and results, I don't wanna deal with them! :( But this is the hard reality, isn't it?

Over the holiday, other than completing my homework, I hardly did revise, and till now, 2 days before the reopen of that terrifying place, I still have the stupid IH thing undone. The simple reason is that I don't know howtta do. Well I think I'll just use my debate script.

Other than training, I also went for a holiday. (Everyone needs a break! ;)) My family and I went to KL to visit my uncle. And after that we went to Genting (again, every year we go there). Our luck wasn't really good this year. Cause it rained on the day we played. We didn't get to go on some of the outdoor rides. My elder sister and I took corkscrew thrice. Haha. Our favourite ride. I LOVE thrill rides.

The thing I dread most about this term is swimming. Man. I really really really hope these 10 lessons whizz by quickly.

Till next time! :) (Which might be long...)

We Won (Finally)!!!

Yay! We finally won a match. But I can say that I didn't do as much in this 5th match of mine than the 4th match of mine last week... But it's ok! I did something! I dribbled and passed the ball! :) How pathetic the attempt to console myself.... Nvm.

We won Emaar International. 28-16. I think I did my longest dribble today, though it was cut short by the opponent. I got the ball, dribbled it towards our side when the opponent stuck to me and I lost the ball. But the opponent didn't grab the ball immediately so I went to grab it and passed it to someone from our team. Whew.

Though this matches we've been playing aren't really big, it matters to us as somewhat a newbie team gaining experiences.

Lastly, Happy Mothers' Day to all mothers in the world. :)

You Know What?

You know what? School life in NJ really feels empty without Claire and Ching Mun. It's so blank just to stare at their empty chairs. Good news is Ching Mun's coming back. :) Bad news, Claire's not coming to school for a month. Probably, we would visit her tomorrow...

You know what? I had the best third lang lesson today so far this year. We did revision for the first half of the lesson, then we had our test. It was break after that and we had a MOVIE. Ines and I have been waiting AGES for this to come. MOVIE. But we didn't watch much because it was time to go home. Hope we get to watch it next week. :)

You know what? I'll be having the 2nd match of my life on Saturday. Hey wait you already know. I really hope that I would be more active in court, no matter how small the chances of the ball landing into my hands are.

Hope Claire gets better.

Council?

Heh. Junior council's result out. It didn't take me by surprise that I wasn't in. Since the interview, I knew I wasn't about to get in. Or anywhere in there. Anyway, Jia Yi and Dikaios got in. For Dikaios' case, I sort of expected him to get in... But not for Jia Yi. He said he screwed the interview like, seriously! But turns out it should have been ok, otherwise he would have entered. I think I feel quite relieved not getting in, weirdly. Anyway, this means I can spend more time on basketball. Though it takes me ages to improve...

Yesterday the senior council people went up to give their speeches... Man, I don't wanna be in council next time! It is so scary. Have to go through damn interview again and in addition to that torture, also have to go up on stage and repeat something probably very similar to what the person before you said. And paste posters of yourself all over the school. Sigh, those are artificial ego-ness. People will think you're ego but you're doing it because you have to!

School life now is... Sleepy. I hate Shakespeare. No offence to Shakespeare admirers but I really really HATE Shakepeare. It's plain boring and they use English differently centuries ago, now wanting us to interpret what they bloody said. Tomorrow, there's a test. Next week, there's another test. LA. Destroying life in school... AHH. Next week, there's French test which the whole class must get perfect scores, according to M. Gilbert. Well, good luck, me, because I need it.

Are you experiencing this sort of stress? Good luck to you too, cause you'll need it.

Nobody Is Perfect

NOBODY IS PERFECT. By now, most of you should have understood this. Unless you're really to arrogant to accept this fact.

I'm indecisive, especially on matters that require a lot of consideration. When I finally decide, I can end up half regreting, half not. A true friend, no matter what wrong decision I make, will try to say good things. Like maybe, "Nvm, there's still another time", "It's ok, everything's over already". But you, yes YOU, always have to mention things that in your opinion I should've done, but I didn't do.

After what is done, you'd just keep saying, "You should've...". You should've, you should've, you should've, you should've, I should've... Don't you know that the more you say, the more people feel bad? Maybe that's your intention. But when I lose temper or feel really sad and you realise it, you'd just act ALL INNOCENT, like you really dunno anything, which I doubt because I know you do know. So this act of innocence just lets uninvolved people (whether there're spectators or not) think that you're just trying to offer help and advising is good for the advised etc, and the advised is throwing a temper, kicking up a fuss, out of a small matter, while you are actually doing something that you're not at all benefiting from just for me.

Yes, I admit, advising will do me good, so that I won't repeat and regret. But you don't add oil to the fire. All you know is pointing out. Have you ever wondered why people get pissed at you? Hmm? They're short-tempered, they have mood swings; they, they, they. Have you ever thought you, you, you? Have you ever thought that you are actually the fault? I know, normally things happen, both sides are to blame. I can accept that. But I doubt you do. Even if you do, you'd still think that the other side is more to blame. Again, the mood swings, temper problem etc. I mean, I know I'm really short-tempered. But you're always only looking this.

In front of normal friends or people around you, you are such a nice person, all the good points. Everyone can see. Inside... It sucks to see that other people think you're the nice and wonderful outshell, and dunno the real innershell. Dunno what I see. What only some of us see.

Everybody has good in their hearts. Even the most evil evil villian. You are good. Sometimes. And those sometimes, I forgot all the previous paragraphs about you. When it dawned upon me, I will wonder like crazy. It's like 2 different worlds. Combined in 1. Maybe you're just arrogant. And that arrogant part, can't be seen by the naked eye. But it just got the better of you.

Getting Used To...

Well, as the holiday (does it even count as a holiday?) ends, I have to get used to taking bus in the morning... And taking bus back. And I realised that I am repeating what I say in the other blog... Cause I realised that I have nothing to say... And I realise that I always say this...

Can't believe I got 8th for the Intra College Math Competition. Now they pull me into Math Olympiad. Man. Have to stay back every Tuesday. Oops. Gotta go. Sorry man.

Blog Post!

This is the first blog post in this blog for this year. And wow, it's posted in February.
Chinse New Year's coming. Valentines' too. Haha.
I went back to Keming yesterday!! Although I was bored at first (because not many people came yet), more people came and it was awesome! LOL. I was so happy to see all my primary school friends!! But some people didn't come.. :(
We played Whacko and Cling Cling, LOL. Haha cause we went to the McDonald's at the CC to eat and play again. We always go there... Although I'm sick of the McDonald's, I was really happy to be with them!
I hope more people can go back to Keming man! I hope all 42 6 Amethyst'08 students will come together again some day... But I wonder when...