Greetings From...

Hello. In KL now. Last day here. Sad... :(

I don't wanna go back to the awful reality that school's reopening. GAH. Got lots of new clothes for the next Chinese New Year. Got some from here in KL and accumulated some over the year. :P This year I got a lot of clothes. My new year resolution is to not get new clothes next year till June. Awesome. Have a feeling I'm gonna have a hard time fulfilling this resolution. Teen years and clothes. Weird. Haiz.

Haha I'm abandoning the Chinese essay I think. Seems like countless people from the level is abandoning the whole Chinese homework. It's a waste of time I think. They make us buy the book, then we hardly use it and to make us finally use it they spam us with this assignment halfway through the holiday. That's just mean.

I had a great Christmas. I think my parents didn't have as great a Christmas as my siblings and I did, cause we were the ones getting new clothes, not them, and they spent their money. :X Haha not that we celebrate Christmas, but still. :)

Gotta go. Hahahaha. Hope to have a great 2012, and I don't believe that the world will end. :)

Long Lost & Found

Guess what? My ABRSM cert has been found! :D HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

Haha I should be more aware of where I put my certs and stuff. If not all my efforts go to waste. :)

I'm so in the holiday mood. Barely did any work, don't feel like doing any. I have so many books to read over the holiday! Just wanna read them all and ignore school work and stuff. But I can't. Ahh. D:

Yay I cooked lunch the day before yesterday. Pasta. :D

Okay this post is really random. But yeah. I'll come back when I have something to say. :D

Take Me Away~

Squabbling happening... Gotta run. Where?

Chalet tomorrow! It sounds promising, but I heard from my sis that the facilities are kinda crappy... Whatever, it's still an escape from the squabbling. And we've survived through OBS, so we can definitely survive through some nights spent under a solid roof, rather than a flimsy flysheet and a leaky tent.

As I am typing now, the squabbling's getting intense. Quite usual. Usual. This is horrible. I wanna check in early into the chalet.

Cya.

Happy Post?

Hey so a happy post was requested!

Haha I'm too busy having fun and relaxing and enjoying myself now, it seems that I even lack time for that! XD Finally ass week is over! But darn, they had to pack us off to OBS... That cuts me short of a week, it includes packing. XP

Come to think of it, it's on Monday and I haven't started fitting the things into the bag... In other words I haven't packed. Oh man how is this a happy post!

I need to accomplish many things. I need to learnt at least the 4 songs I wanna learn on piano. :) I need to finish the 6 storybooks. :D I need to play. Lol. I need to sleep! Hahahahaha.

Let's try to make the atmosphere more happy. :) I absolutely LOVE the time after ass week. I could sit with my friends and talk all day without a care in the world. :D Oh but 1 bad thing is that I'm kinda broke cause I spent all my money the very day ass week ended. Oops. Hahahaha. I think I'm gonna leave for now. I'll return with a better post, hopefully. :P

What If - A Message to Self

What if you've tried really hard, but it all goes down to waste? What if you've suffered so much to suffer again? What if you've seen it coming but there's nowhere to run?

So stressed. Stupid ass week. Got a darn bad feeling that I'm gonna fail at least bio again. Why does it have to be so hard? It's not like I'm not trying. I am. Even harder than the previous ass week. Why. Why does it have to be this way.

Why ask why? Why blame fate? Why not yourself? Most likely, the real problem lies in yourself. Yeah, maybe the way you're doing it ain't right. Maybe some others are just... Plain smart. GET IT? You have to accept it to move on. It's painful to watch. It's painful to take in. But also, know that there are people out there experiencing the same thing as you. You are not alone. So stop getting on other's nerves when they have enough to deal with. Just do your best, as long as you know it. I know it's really sad to be one of the only ones aware, but know this - it exists in there. Though you might be the only one who knows it, whatever, okay?

Just 3 more weeks (including OBS). Fight on, fight on.

Now go back into reality.

Go on, GO CRAZY.

Hi. So Imma go crazy.

These few days have been tiring... Why? Oh ya, school. Since I dunno what time, I've been on the com designing the dumb IH poster. And by the looks of it, people won't like it. Oh wells. Now the contents can't fit in cause Dikaios is being too hardworking. Waiting for him to send an edited version. By right, I'm getting off the com soon. At this rate, I'm gonna need specs. And NO, I don't want specs.

I'm still tired.

Anyway, have I ever mentioned to you that I LOVE Fridays? Well not the whole day, but my favourite part is when school officially ends. (Friday's in fact the worst school day) THAT'S when the fun starts. :) Yesterday, was Friday. :) As usual, we were all happy when school ended. Torture for the week was finally over. So some of us were staying back in class signing on the autograph section of the photo 'books'. When I went home, I realized that I needa wash my socks (not exactly a very fun part...). So I washed it. When I went out to hang them dry, a wasp FLEW into my sock. Great. I brought the sock back into the bathroom. And filled the sock up with water (ya, obviously the sock can't be fully filled with water; water was leaking out). And the wasp was struggling in it. SORRY! ): As much as I don't wanna kill things, insects are creepy. I don't like them. So I kept filling water but the wasp wouldn't die. I eventually dropped the sock onto the floor, cause I was kinda freaked out. And I started stomping on it. Then I filled it with water again. And I flipped over the sock, hoping that the hopefully dead wasp would just drop out. But it didn't! D: THEN, my mum came to my rescue! :D Within seconds the dead wasp was gone with the water currents. My mum rocks. :D

After dinner, we went to IMM. Popular @ Westmall closed. D: It has no idea how many many people its closure has affected. Finally I got my pens!! :D AND AND I got Taylor Swift's latest album deluxe version!!! :D <3 Haha I know it's kinda late to get it, not very new anymore. But yup I'm happy. I LOVE Fridays. :)

Sigh. Today is Saturday. I like Saturdays too, but unlike Friday nights where there shouldn't be any work or homework involved (own rule XD), I have to do work on Saturdays. Oh well. Back to work. And EYE REST. O.o

Just Hold On

Now, what I'm waiting for is the time when ass week and the dreaded OBS are all OVER!! So, tomorrow, school starts. It's 2:30am and I'm online doing nothing relevant to school. Epic? Much. Let's just say that the good news it that I've almost finished all my work, including the searching of meanings of 100 Chinese words/phrases that I don't understand. That's not really brain-work, but it's tedious. Sigh, for Math, I still don't know howta do some questions. Oh well. Getting help for them soon.

What have you been doing for the one week 'holiday'(if that's what you call the week)? Well although I didn't accomplish all that I've planned for this holiday, I can say that there were a couple of events that I didn't really expect to occur and they took up unexpectedly a larger amount of time. WORRY! D: Ass week soon, and I'm not really prepared. Didn't really start on anything. So they say, just endure these couple of weeks and it'll be over (for the year). And man I find it tough. ): Wonder how I'll survive SH1 and SH2. This sucks. And it's sorta my problem!! AHH no one else to blame. DX Kays going off le. Bye! :)

Hanging On

Wow boarding term ended today. So... Fast. Everything just flew by, I wonder if we can remember everything. The exact details will definitely be forgotten someday, but the memory will still exist in our memories. So for this boarding term we had night cycling, tchoukball and formal dinner. Yeah these were the highlights that I preferred and enjoyed in boarding. :) Night cycling was so fun and tchoukball just made our class so bonded, I love 307. Formal dinner was... Normal. Yeah. I just enjoyed looking at friends dress up and stuff.

Now I just needa survive the rest of this week and next Wednesday. :) Can't wait for the holidays, so I get a break from waking up so early in the morning at least, and KBOX with the OOMPHLETS!! :D

Teehee next Thursday is Teachers' Day celebrations, meaning there's no lessons! I'm so happy cause I'm going back to my primary school to meet my primary school friends whom I haven't interacted with for quite a long time. :) (Sorry teachers, not too excited about celebrating how you people tortured us :P)

Soon, we'll cross the border that separates us from term 4... :O Horrible horrible term 4, wonder how we'll survive. The first 5 weeks will be the main torture (oh gosh just realized I don't have much time left till ass week), then it will be other 'enrichment' stuff. Omg, OBS. Kinda scared about it, but oh well must pass it. Argh I will study and do my best, because I don't wanna go back to school during the year end holidays for stuff like consolidation and tuition and whatnot, like what I got myself into now.

POST!

Hmm I haven't been posting for a while... Okay maybe longer than a while but whatever... Life is still unsolved and confusing. But I'm coping! That's good... At least I don't seem depressed all the time anymore. :)

When things are like that in life, it calls for... DISTRACTIONS. Yes distractions. Like, my family got a new camera today! FINALLY! Yay it's nice. :D Will get new phone too, finally, but next month.

Oh yeah... I got my results slip yesterday too. Oh well. The whole level did badly. Real bad. I was still below average though. Never was above. Oh well must mug. D: Never mind it's a distraction!

Will Power?

Hmm... So where's my will power to do my stupid homework? Ahh. I guess it's non-existent. Great, so how do I complete the remaining of my tasks. This just sucks. Why can't they just leave us alone during the holidays? We suffered enough during term. :/ Sigh. Ok. I must plan something. Maybe set a target. Start LA and Chinese by Wednesday? Or by end of this week I have to at least get started. Hey yeah, I do have to, or else I only have the last week to complete the stuff, and I'm kinda busy during the last week. Dang. Why am I so disorganized? D: I wish I had the will power to do all these monotonous stuff. I dunno. Figure out some way to find these kinda things fun? Life... Is bothersome. Now, at least. Just hope that I suddenly go mad and have the feel to complete all my work. Now, I just wanna slack and slack and slack. :)

Slacking...

So here I am slacking. When I'm supposed to do some tedious bio assignment. It's terrible... Well, at least I got most of the research part and the drawing done. But I really don't feel like doing it now. Which is why I'm stuck here posting. XP And slacking. I did badly for this semester, even though I put in quite a lot of effort. Most probably things didn't work out because I did last minute work. So I calculated, and I guess if I want consistent work and do at least ok in my exams, I'll most probably end up with no life, because studying is dead and I have to being studying all my time away, which will result in having no life. SIGH. I really don't feel like doing this bloody thang now. But it would most probably save my bio grade a little, cause my worst result came from bio and it's the worst fail, U. Can't believe I actually spent so much time doing up notes and still nothing gets into my head and I failed so terribly. I think it's my problem. But my brain just can't seem to absorb and piece things together. I don't know why. Lazy? No, I tried. I know I did. I know I wanted to go through this damn assessment week ok, so the week before I was really trying. Now I just don't wanna revisit all those torturous notes, let alone doing up some assignment that requires so much effort. They are just out there to kill us, I know it. Now what? I really really really don't feel like doing it. My solution? Don't do now. If there's something stopping you from doing something, go knock down the obstacle first. If not you'll never get pass it, even if you do, you won't get pass it properly. And in this case if I try doing the stupid assignment now I'll probably fail it anyway. So now, I'm gonna game and slack. Wait till the time comes when I begin to feel kan choing about it cause the deadline is closing up, or when I have the sudden inspiration to do monotonous stuff.

Release

Yeah I feel free and I like it. :) Better bored than never.

Tech run for arts fest later... Hopefully can rush back in time for formal dinner. :D Last week of boarding as leader in boarding again. Woots next term will be boarding with people from my level. :D

This term is coming to an end... What I can say is that it has been rather rocky... Before ass week was terrible. It was stressful and stuff, and so sleepless. But after that, things ARE great. :) I could get used to life now... :D And I better enjoy it. Cause there are still more annoying stuff after the holidays I expect... :(

Gotta plan class outing soon... Or else (or maybe they already started) the class would complain of a useless SE Comm. Hope our idea can come true successfully. :D

Pileload

The past week felt slacky for some reason. I don't know what. But now it feels super tensed. For one, the assessment week (ass week) schedule is out, and we realize that we have tests for subjects that haven't yet existed on our timetables (Music?!) and the ass week is in 1 month's time. Not that I hate music, but it's really scary to have a music test.

I think I might go bonkers if this continues. I don't understand enough of some lessons, like bits and pieces of Math, chunks of Science, the whole bunch of GS. And the amount of work they give over the weekend is just gross. I don't have so much free time during weekends. This weekend, especially. And we've got LA essay. And we've got projects. Oh why am I here anyway.

Cya.

Zooming Through Time

In a flash term 1's over. Hardly believable, but yeah it is. I'm so glad the term is over, cause there's some 'break'. Though we have a one week holiday, homework assigned to us will probably take us more than 1 week, but we'll get more sleep time and leisure of doing stuff at times we want to.

Put that aside. Rest. That's what we need and also, deserve. Tomorrow is the track meet. :D It's in Yishun Stadium, that means no lessons! :D I'm so glad for this break. THE FRIDAY FEELING ON THURSDAY. It feels good. Alright I needa go sleep cause I still need to go to Yishun tomorrow.

Break FTW! XD

Heats and Songs

Heats for track meet yesterday! I was running for 100m individual. Rachael asked me to... Hahaha I was second last! But at least I got 1 house point for Aqua! :D As for today, I replaced Glenys for 200m individual cause she got injured yesterday. I got second last again! But I dunno why, I'm quite happy with my timing even though that if you calculated it, the time taken for 100m was faster. Aqua gets points again! :D

This is Don't Let Me Go by The Click Five. I changed the lyrics, haha. Actually I only know the tune of the chorus, and I only hear it on the radio once or twice before. So it might sound weird...

I can see your message lying in the inbox

I can hear your whining going on once again

Every day and night I wish, it'll stop happening

I can hear me breathing letting out a sad sigh

You tried so hard to hide your fears

Always run away

Oh, please let me go

Don't make me try so hard when you don't

Oh, please turn away

Please give me some space to breathe

Oh please, please let me go...

I can see the workload piling up on the desk

Tears are bottled up

I'm trying just to make sense

I tried my best to help you for a while now and nothing's good

It sucks when you keep harassing me and not move on

I wish and wish for it to end

But always come again

I'm breakin' down

From all the troubles you have

Aren't you s'posed to be the one depressed

We move on far

But you're stuck there...

Please let me go... Just let me go...

Life

Life. It's a broad topic. Because in life, we do many things, we accomplish many things, we also fail to do certain things. Ever wondered, why are we spending effort to do all these?

Time is not an issue here. With time, we can do things. But why? Why do we have to do things that we don't want to? Yeah maybe it'll benefit us one fine day. But everyone will cease to exist one day.

Today, I saw an accident scene. It made me realize once again that life can be so unpredictable. One moment you are going to the market, one moment you're gone. You'll never know when things might happen, whether good or bad. So after doing all the things you do, after all the effort, they disappear into nothingness right the moment you're no more. I wish these unfortunate things don't happen. Nobody wants it to. But sadly you can't expect anything. Anything at all.

But why can't we just do everything or anything we want? Life isn't long, considered the number of years passed. But when things become unexpected, even if all we do is what we want to, will we still regret that we didn't do enough?

Dozing Off

It the first week of school and I feel like dozing off during whichever lesson after lunch. Oh man, what is going wrong! Maybe I should sleep at 8:00pm?

Walk-in was fabulous. :D Well, I admit that I did a step wrong, but luckily I wasn't in the first row and thus I could see my difference from what others were doing. Haha and I switched back just in time. :) I wish I could do the baby freeze already! Argh my arms are so weak!

The scholars are ok... Just that we're still not used to them, and leave them out most of the times. D: But I try! Well, 1 person can't do everything alone, right? It must be a combined effort. I'm trying really hard to understand every lesson, which brings me back to wonder how I'm supposed to stay awake after lunch...

Some of our classes are banded... LA, Math and HCL. I'm in the normal-normal (or maybe low?) class for LA and Math. But for HCL, I'm in the 'elite' class. Omg, I wish I'm not in this class sometimes. Firstly, and obviously, the China scholars are scarily fast and pro. But the worst is, even the local students are very pro. Jie Min and I were stoning and staring at each other while the people from the class answered the questions. Oh no...

Haha that's it for now. :) Till next time.

Tired But Fun?

So I've been going for orientation walk-in practices. It started out really hard at first, but after painfully learning all the steps, being able to do the steps properly is a pleasure and joy. Waking up early in the morning during holidays is never a thing that I like to do, but I hope it would be all worthwhile.

Gosh I'm feeling hungry now... The OGLs are practising their entrance for JH and SH orientation. Well they're basically just the same thing, just that only students from JH4 or SH1 onwards can be OGL for SH. I really hope lunch will be soon. Hmm or rather, I really hope gastric won't act out.

Blah. Sorry, I don't know what to say. Maybe hunger's devouring me.

Oops I was supposed to post this yesterday, but due some circumstances I couldn't. So, here you are! :D