Drive-less

Slacking at home: reading books, watching tv, watching videos. :) Hardly any work at all. As usual, I'm feeling guilty, but barely doing anything about it. :P Yeah, it's the holidays, but it's not like I'm the smartest kid, so I think I need the revision. I did a timetable for myself, but at this rate, I don't think I'm going to be able to follow the timetable... :/ Oh well.

What's Left

Chinese 'O' level in less than a month... And now we have chinese lectures from 8am to 3pm almost everyday. Sigh. Most of the times our brains are just too drained to do anything.

But we only have these few days left. These few days left to the exam. These few days left of our days as 'secondary' school students. Next year, things would be so... Different. We can already anticipate it. I wonder if being able to anticipate it is a good or a bad thing... Oh wells either way we have to go through it.

We are doing so many things that have been said to have a certain 'result', like how taking chinese 'O' level will allow us to not study chinese anymore for 'A' levels, unless you choose it. But these are the results that we all want, the results that we desire. What if the tabooed result occurs? Life can be so unexpected. We can only prepare for things, but never know for sure if it would happen the way we want it to be.

Stationary

Sometimes it hurts to just wait. Because it never comes. But you can't bring yourself to do anything. Because it's wrong. Sometimes you can't even tell whether it's wrong. I can't.

Maybe I'm exaggerating things. Perhaps things are just that simple. Things are not going the way you wish it would be. It never does.


Right now I'm just watching... And hoping. As I have always been doing.

100th post! :)

Failure

I really wanted to throw that coil away.

In physics class yesterday, we were supposed to make a DC motor each. After like really long, most people could make, but I couldn't. It sorta suck, but then again, how can failure feel good? Our teacher, Ms Ong, said that we could keep the coil that we used to make the motors. People were like really happy to be able to keep the coil, which would probably remind them next time about their enjoyable experience successfully making the motor. I didn't wanna be reminded. I wanted to throw it away.

But then I thought, isn't it just, I dunno, cowardly to purposely try to cover up or erase those points of failure in your life? I shoved the coil into my pencil case. This coil will remind me that events in life cannot always happen in the way you want it; success does not com easily. Haha, like I need so much reminder that my life has so many failures already... But I still think it is important to acknowledge the fact that I failed. So that I can try again and one day be more successful.

I will always remember that advice.

Nothingness

So exams are over... Mid years at least. I switched on my slack-mode fully. Haven't done any work since the end of the exams. Oh well. Just hoping that I wouldn't go rusty when it comes to holiday homework. Results? Failed bio (once again). But I think I'm sorta okay with the rest of my subjects. I should just keep trying like that. One fine day, it will pay off and I will be happy. :)

Just had cyberwellness yesterday and today. It was so horrible that in day 2 (today), half the cohort either had food poisoning or came down with flu. If you know what I mean. I almost fell sick, but my mum cured me. So I had to go to school and attend the damn cyberwellness shit. At such points in life, I wish to fall sick. The trainer/instructor was such a bitch. Sorry. I always start off without ill feelings towards anyone. She just got on my nerves. Everyone's nerves. Till they fell sick. She was so authoritative. She enjoyed the control she held over us. Treated us like a bunch of kids. Even before we started BEING like kids and ignoring the whole workshop. It was mental, physical and emotional torture being in there. For the first day, I had to grab the chair to feel like angry. Today, I just tried to make a joke out of the whole thing. I guess this is the way to survive horrible days in your life. :)

Going to China this Sunday. Cohort trip! Hope it'll be fun. Being in the same cohort for the fourth year already, everyone sort-of-can-recognize everyone. It's also like a huge out-of-the-country class outing. Haha. Haven't packed. Ahhhhh lazy. XD

I HATE the weather now. It's so so hot. AND humid. And by going out of country, I wanna go somewhere colder. Somewhere where I can escape this heat. But it's nearing summer now in China!! ARGH.

Okay bye!