You Know What?

You know what? School life in NJ really feels empty without Claire and Ching Mun. It's so blank just to stare at their empty chairs. Good news is Ching Mun's coming back. :) Bad news, Claire's not coming to school for a month. Probably, we would visit her tomorrow...

You know what? I had the best third lang lesson today so far this year. We did revision for the first half of the lesson, then we had our test. It was break after that and we had a MOVIE. Ines and I have been waiting AGES for this to come. MOVIE. But we didn't watch much because it was time to go home. Hope we get to watch it next week. :)

You know what? I'll be having the 2nd match of my life on Saturday. Hey wait you already know. I really hope that I would be more active in court, no matter how small the chances of the ball landing into my hands are.

Hope Claire gets better.

Council?

Heh. Junior council's result out. It didn't take me by surprise that I wasn't in. Since the interview, I knew I wasn't about to get in. Or anywhere in there. Anyway, Jia Yi and Dikaios got in. For Dikaios' case, I sort of expected him to get in... But not for Jia Yi. He said he screwed the interview like, seriously! But turns out it should have been ok, otherwise he would have entered. I think I feel quite relieved not getting in, weirdly. Anyway, this means I can spend more time on basketball. Though it takes me ages to improve...

Yesterday the senior council people went up to give their speeches... Man, I don't wanna be in council next time! It is so scary. Have to go through damn interview again and in addition to that torture, also have to go up on stage and repeat something probably very similar to what the person before you said. And paste posters of yourself all over the school. Sigh, those are artificial ego-ness. People will think you're ego but you're doing it because you have to!

School life now is... Sleepy. I hate Shakespeare. No offence to Shakespeare admirers but I really really HATE Shakepeare. It's plain boring and they use English differently centuries ago, now wanting us to interpret what they bloody said. Tomorrow, there's a test. Next week, there's another test. LA. Destroying life in school... AHH. Next week, there's French test which the whole class must get perfect scores, according to M. Gilbert. Well, good luck, me, because I need it.

Are you experiencing this sort of stress? Good luck to you too, cause you'll need it.

Nobody Is Perfect

NOBODY IS PERFECT. By now, most of you should have understood this. Unless you're really to arrogant to accept this fact.

I'm indecisive, especially on matters that require a lot of consideration. When I finally decide, I can end up half regreting, half not. A true friend, no matter what wrong decision I make, will try to say good things. Like maybe, "Nvm, there's still another time", "It's ok, everything's over already". But you, yes YOU, always have to mention things that in your opinion I should've done, but I didn't do.

After what is done, you'd just keep saying, "You should've...". You should've, you should've, you should've, you should've, I should've... Don't you know that the more you say, the more people feel bad? Maybe that's your intention. But when I lose temper or feel really sad and you realise it, you'd just act ALL INNOCENT, like you really dunno anything, which I doubt because I know you do know. So this act of innocence just lets uninvolved people (whether there're spectators or not) think that you're just trying to offer help and advising is good for the advised etc, and the advised is throwing a temper, kicking up a fuss, out of a small matter, while you are actually doing something that you're not at all benefiting from just for me.

Yes, I admit, advising will do me good, so that I won't repeat and regret. But you don't add oil to the fire. All you know is pointing out. Have you ever wondered why people get pissed at you? Hmm? They're short-tempered, they have mood swings; they, they, they. Have you ever thought you, you, you? Have you ever thought that you are actually the fault? I know, normally things happen, both sides are to blame. I can accept that. But I doubt you do. Even if you do, you'd still think that the other side is more to blame. Again, the mood swings, temper problem etc. I mean, I know I'm really short-tempered. But you're always only looking this.

In front of normal friends or people around you, you are such a nice person, all the good points. Everyone can see. Inside... It sucks to see that other people think you're the nice and wonderful outshell, and dunno the real innershell. Dunno what I see. What only some of us see.

Everybody has good in their hearts. Even the most evil evil villian. You are good. Sometimes. And those sometimes, I forgot all the previous paragraphs about you. When it dawned upon me, I will wonder like crazy. It's like 2 different worlds. Combined in 1. Maybe you're just arrogant. And that arrogant part, can't be seen by the naked eye. But it just got the better of you.