What If - A Message to Self

What if you've tried really hard, but it all goes down to waste? What if you've suffered so much to suffer again? What if you've seen it coming but there's nowhere to run?

So stressed. Stupid ass week. Got a darn bad feeling that I'm gonna fail at least bio again. Why does it have to be so hard? It's not like I'm not trying. I am. Even harder than the previous ass week. Why. Why does it have to be this way.

Why ask why? Why blame fate? Why not yourself? Most likely, the real problem lies in yourself. Yeah, maybe the way you're doing it ain't right. Maybe some others are just... Plain smart. GET IT? You have to accept it to move on. It's painful to watch. It's painful to take in. But also, know that there are people out there experiencing the same thing as you. You are not alone. So stop getting on other's nerves when they have enough to deal with. Just do your best, as long as you know it. I know it's really sad to be one of the only ones aware, but know this - it exists in there. Though you might be the only one who knows it, whatever, okay?

Just 3 more weeks (including OBS). Fight on, fight on.

Now go back into reality.

Go on, GO CRAZY.

Hi. So Imma go crazy.

These few days have been tiring... Why? Oh ya, school. Since I dunno what time, I've been on the com designing the dumb IH poster. And by the looks of it, people won't like it. Oh wells. Now the contents can't fit in cause Dikaios is being too hardworking. Waiting for him to send an edited version. By right, I'm getting off the com soon. At this rate, I'm gonna need specs. And NO, I don't want specs.

I'm still tired.

Anyway, have I ever mentioned to you that I LOVE Fridays? Well not the whole day, but my favourite part is when school officially ends. (Friday's in fact the worst school day) THAT'S when the fun starts. :) Yesterday, was Friday. :) As usual, we were all happy when school ended. Torture for the week was finally over. So some of us were staying back in class signing on the autograph section of the photo 'books'. When I went home, I realized that I needa wash my socks (not exactly a very fun part...). So I washed it. When I went out to hang them dry, a wasp FLEW into my sock. Great. I brought the sock back into the bathroom. And filled the sock up with water (ya, obviously the sock can't be fully filled with water; water was leaking out). And the wasp was struggling in it. SORRY! ): As much as I don't wanna kill things, insects are creepy. I don't like them. So I kept filling water but the wasp wouldn't die. I eventually dropped the sock onto the floor, cause I was kinda freaked out. And I started stomping on it. Then I filled it with water again. And I flipped over the sock, hoping that the hopefully dead wasp would just drop out. But it didn't! D: THEN, my mum came to my rescue! :D Within seconds the dead wasp was gone with the water currents. My mum rocks. :D

After dinner, we went to IMM. Popular @ Westmall closed. D: It has no idea how many many people its closure has affected. Finally I got my pens!! :D AND AND I got Taylor Swift's latest album deluxe version!!! :D <3 Haha I know it's kinda late to get it, not very new anymore. But yup I'm happy. I LOVE Fridays. :)

Sigh. Today is Saturday. I like Saturdays too, but unlike Friday nights where there shouldn't be any work or homework involved (own rule XD), I have to do work on Saturdays. Oh well. Back to work. And EYE REST. O.o

Just Hold On

Now, what I'm waiting for is the time when ass week and the dreaded OBS are all OVER!! So, tomorrow, school starts. It's 2:30am and I'm online doing nothing relevant to school. Epic? Much. Let's just say that the good news it that I've almost finished all my work, including the searching of meanings of 100 Chinese words/phrases that I don't understand. That's not really brain-work, but it's tedious. Sigh, for Math, I still don't know howta do some questions. Oh well. Getting help for them soon.

What have you been doing for the one week 'holiday'(if that's what you call the week)? Well although I didn't accomplish all that I've planned for this holiday, I can say that there were a couple of events that I didn't really expect to occur and they took up unexpectedly a larger amount of time. WORRY! D: Ass week soon, and I'm not really prepared. Didn't really start on anything. So they say, just endure these couple of weeks and it'll be over (for the year). And man I find it tough. ): Wonder how I'll survive SH1 and SH2. This sucks. And it's sorta my problem!! AHH no one else to blame. DX Kays going off le. Bye! :)