Will Power?

Hmm... So where's my will power to do my stupid homework? Ahh. I guess it's non-existent. Great, so how do I complete the remaining of my tasks. This just sucks. Why can't they just leave us alone during the holidays? We suffered enough during term. :/ Sigh. Ok. I must plan something. Maybe set a target. Start LA and Chinese by Wednesday? Or by end of this week I have to at least get started. Hey yeah, I do have to, or else I only have the last week to complete the stuff, and I'm kinda busy during the last week. Dang. Why am I so disorganized? D: I wish I had the will power to do all these monotonous stuff. I dunno. Figure out some way to find these kinda things fun? Life... Is bothersome. Now, at least. Just hope that I suddenly go mad and have the feel to complete all my work. Now, I just wanna slack and slack and slack. :)

Slacking...

So here I am slacking. When I'm supposed to do some tedious bio assignment. It's terrible... Well, at least I got most of the research part and the drawing done. But I really don't feel like doing it now. Which is why I'm stuck here posting. XP And slacking. I did badly for this semester, even though I put in quite a lot of effort. Most probably things didn't work out because I did last minute work. So I calculated, and I guess if I want consistent work and do at least ok in my exams, I'll most probably end up with no life, because studying is dead and I have to being studying all my time away, which will result in having no life. SIGH. I really don't feel like doing this bloody thang now. But it would most probably save my bio grade a little, cause my worst result came from bio and it's the worst fail, U. Can't believe I actually spent so much time doing up notes and still nothing gets into my head and I failed so terribly. I think it's my problem. But my brain just can't seem to absorb and piece things together. I don't know why. Lazy? No, I tried. I know I did. I know I wanted to go through this damn assessment week ok, so the week before I was really trying. Now I just don't wanna revisit all those torturous notes, let alone doing up some assignment that requires so much effort. They are just out there to kill us, I know it. Now what? I really really really don't feel like doing it. My solution? Don't do now. If there's something stopping you from doing something, go knock down the obstacle first. If not you'll never get pass it, even if you do, you won't get pass it properly. And in this case if I try doing the stupid assignment now I'll probably fail it anyway. So now, I'm gonna game and slack. Wait till the time comes when I begin to feel kan choing about it cause the deadline is closing up, or when I have the sudden inspiration to do monotonous stuff.

Release

Yeah I feel free and I like it. :) Better bored than never.

Tech run for arts fest later... Hopefully can rush back in time for formal dinner. :D Last week of boarding as leader in boarding again. Woots next term will be boarding with people from my level. :D

This term is coming to an end... What I can say is that it has been rather rocky... Before ass week was terrible. It was stressful and stuff, and so sleepless. But after that, things ARE great. :) I could get used to life now... :D And I better enjoy it. Cause there are still more annoying stuff after the holidays I expect... :(

Gotta plan class outing soon... Or else (or maybe they already started) the class would complain of a useless SE Comm. Hope our idea can come true successfully. :D

Pileload

The past week felt slacky for some reason. I don't know what. But now it feels super tensed. For one, the assessment week (ass week) schedule is out, and we realize that we have tests for subjects that haven't yet existed on our timetables (Music?!) and the ass week is in 1 month's time. Not that I hate music, but it's really scary to have a music test.

I think I might go bonkers if this continues. I don't understand enough of some lessons, like bits and pieces of Math, chunks of Science, the whole bunch of GS. And the amount of work they give over the weekend is just gross. I don't have so much free time during weekends. This weekend, especially. And we've got LA essay. And we've got projects. Oh why am I here anyway.

Cya.

Zooming Through Time

In a flash term 1's over. Hardly believable, but yeah it is. I'm so glad the term is over, cause there's some 'break'. Though we have a one week holiday, homework assigned to us will probably take us more than 1 week, but we'll get more sleep time and leisure of doing stuff at times we want to.

Put that aside. Rest. That's what we need and also, deserve. Tomorrow is the track meet. :D It's in Yishun Stadium, that means no lessons! :D I'm so glad for this break. THE FRIDAY FEELING ON THURSDAY. It feels good. Alright I needa go sleep cause I still need to go to Yishun tomorrow.

Break FTW! XD

Heats and Songs

Heats for track meet yesterday! I was running for 100m individual. Rachael asked me to... Hahaha I was second last! But at least I got 1 house point for Aqua! :D As for today, I replaced Glenys for 200m individual cause she got injured yesterday. I got second last again! But I dunno why, I'm quite happy with my timing even though that if you calculated it, the time taken for 100m was faster. Aqua gets points again! :D

This is Don't Let Me Go by The Click Five. I changed the lyrics, haha. Actually I only know the tune of the chorus, and I only hear it on the radio once or twice before. So it might sound weird...

I can see your message lying in the inbox

I can hear your whining going on once again

Every day and night I wish, it'll stop happening

I can hear me breathing letting out a sad sigh

You tried so hard to hide your fears

Always run away

Oh, please let me go

Don't make me try so hard when you don't

Oh, please turn away

Please give me some space to breathe

Oh please, please let me go...

I can see the workload piling up on the desk

Tears are bottled up

I'm trying just to make sense

I tried my best to help you for a while now and nothing's good

It sucks when you keep harassing me and not move on

I wish and wish for it to end

But always come again

I'm breakin' down

From all the troubles you have

Aren't you s'posed to be the one depressed

We move on far

But you're stuck there...

Please let me go... Just let me go...

Life

Life. It's a broad topic. Because in life, we do many things, we accomplish many things, we also fail to do certain things. Ever wondered, why are we spending effort to do all these?

Time is not an issue here. With time, we can do things. But why? Why do we have to do things that we don't want to? Yeah maybe it'll benefit us one fine day. But everyone will cease to exist one day.

Today, I saw an accident scene. It made me realize once again that life can be so unpredictable. One moment you are going to the market, one moment you're gone. You'll never know when things might happen, whether good or bad. So after doing all the things you do, after all the effort, they disappear into nothingness right the moment you're no more. I wish these unfortunate things don't happen. Nobody wants it to. But sadly you can't expect anything. Anything at all.

But why can't we just do everything or anything we want? Life isn't long, considered the number of years passed. But when things become unexpected, even if all we do is what we want to, will we still regret that we didn't do enough?